Faith in the Cracks – Allowing God to seep into the cracks in our lives.

We all have tapes that play in our heads. When life happens, there are scripts that we play over and over. Sometimes they are positive and sometimes they are negative. For me the tape is often about not being enough. So if I work harder, do better, be more perfect, do more stuff – then I will win the approval and acceptance of others. So all too often, particularly when I am tired or worn out, when things don’t go as I would like, it is because I am not enough.

More often than not, that tape is incorrect. Fear is often behind that script. Fear is what drives most of the negative scripts for me. So often, I work to step through my fears. I am working to change the script that plays. Instead of not being enough, I try to focus on the things I do well and that I know and how those can help in a situation that is new or scary. I try to remind myself of times when I have done well and have been embraced for whatever it is I have been doing.

Scripts/tapes are not easy to overcome. Fear is often a big obstacle. But with work and with reminders that I am a child of God. God called humanity very good. That although I may not know all the things or do everything perfectly (cause being human kicks in) I am enough. I am able to do many things and have lots of gifts to share.